present minded

today

today i woke up, and,
the sky was a little bit grey
strange
there were no clouds, but,
let me look again

tomorrow came
was there always this much concrete?
strange
there used to be more foliage
i think i need a break

the day after came
i’ve lost track of the day, and,
it seems the edges of my vision are grey
how strange
maybe i need a break, but,
there’s so much to do today

some days passed
the grey bled over, and,
there’s not much to see to see today
i think i’ll close my eyes

i decided to open my eyes today
maybe it’ll be different, but,
expectations
my heart feels heavy now
maybe i’ll just sleep
again

a day arrived
i felt some pain today, and,
the colors are overwhelming
it started raining
how strange

some days passed
i found it hard to close my eyes today, but,
i saw some yellow
i think i’ll just breathe for today
strange

the day after came
i saw some green today, and,
i felt lighter
the downpour has flooded me

tomorrow came
maybe i’ll go outside today, but,
i’m scared
i don’t want to slip
can i be afraid today?
strange

today i woke up, and,
the sky was a bit blue today

today